Introspective

Did a couple of self portraits today, one in pencil, one in acrylic. Here's the pencil, will post the acryic soon.

What a day...

I had a very strange day today. I guess it all started with the blackout. At around one o'clock in the morning or about there, everything went black. Not good. I had just crawled into bed, and started to watch the Royal Tannenbaums. I tossed and turned in the dark for a few minutes, trying to go to sleep. I usually like to have some background noise when I fall asleep, a movie usually, otherwise I tend to think too much. And lately I have had a lot to think about. So I eventually gave up trying to go to sleep and went downstairs to check if it was just a fuse. Nope. The whole neighborhood was out. Katie and Timmy were awake, talking about Star Wars again. Said "Hi", and went back up stairs. "Ah ha!" I said, "My laptop can run on batteries! Sweet!" So after manuvering the laptop near the bed, I popped in Office Space for some nice background noise and drifted off to never never land.

I dragged my ass out of bed around 8:30, running a little behind but not rush-out-with-n0-shower-or-coffeee-late. I leave the house around 9:15, usual time, and get to the Mall about 9:25. Not bad timing. I stop by dunkin's, grab an ice coffee and a bagel, and mosey on over to the store. As I am getting to the store, I see a head behind the counter! What the heck? So I go over to the gate, and its unlocked! Holy shit! I pull the gate open and there is Annie, opening the store. Turns out I was scheduled to come in at 2:00. Holy crap. That is the first time I have done that. Wouldn't be so bad, but I wrote the damn schedule! Sheesh.

So I went back home, feeling very strange. I am usually not up that early without having to be somewhere or so something. I spent the morning working on my resume and my college application essay. Listen to the new Audioslave CD. It's pretty good.

Rest of the day was just kind of a blur. Didn't have a lot of energy, basically got nothing done. I just don't care anymore. Not sure if I ever did, but I am not even pretending anymore. Did a 30 second self portrait. Looks hostile. Feel more lost than hostile. Want to talk to Sarah, but said I wouldn't call her for a while.

It's been raining too long...

It's been raining way too long. I need to see some sunshine. More posts soon.