It's been a weird week. Things look they may be coming to a head soon at work. They hired a new manager, who starts Tuesday. I have also decided I don't give a flying fuck about the job anyway. Not that I cared much before. But I care even less now.

Took a look at the spreadsheet for 1st quarter. They are always bitching about hours, hours, hours - don't use a lot of hours. But as it turns out, we are under payroll plan by a significant margin, most of which should be in my pocket for running the place. Bitter? Upset? What do you think?

I am redoubling my efforts to find a new job. My base requirements are - 15 minute commute if driving or 45 by subway, $9.50 per hour, 16-24 hours per week, no late nights and then early mornings. Those are my base standards. I am not looking for responsibility, or room for advancement. I am looking for a job that will help me pay for school, and put a couple of bucks in my pocket, and give me time to pursue my art and other personal projects. I am pretty flexible with what kind of job it actually is. If it could at least be vaguely associated with something I am interseted and allow me to learn some new things, that would rock. No bullshit, though.

I talked to Sarah earlier this week, and it was weird and I was weird and I am sorry. She seems sad and upset and I wonder if it's only when she's talking to me that she gets upset or if I am upset when I talk to her and that makes her upset or I don't even know. I'm just confused. I think we had a great connection not too long ago. I feel lately like I am walking on eggshells whenever I talk to her, and it wasn't like that before. She hasn't called me in a couple of days and I think she is pissed at me.

I am working most of this weekend. 4th of July weekend. Don't know if it's going to be busy.I think I may snap. My tolerance for humanity has worn a little thin.

I have some pages done from my comic, not all that I wanted to, but a couple. I am not too too happy with the way they came out, but it was good practice and fun to do them. I did 3 pages in about 6 hours, and I definately was rushing. I need to be able to take my time. I am still going to try to finish a full book. It think it takes a lot longer to draw and ink a good page than I thought. I figure I will need about 5 hours to pencil, 5 hours to ink, and 5 hours to color and letter each page. That's 15 hours per page, times 24 pages, equals about 15 days straight to finish a book, give or take. That is a lot of time. But it makes me happy :)

Here's page one (no words or colors yet) :



And here is page two: